I give up !

This is so important !!

We waste so much time and energy on people that clearly don't care about us.  Why is that?  Why do we need people to like us? Why do we expect people to like us? I wonder that all the time. It seems like if someone does not care about me or for me I spend energy analyzing what I have done or more often - what have I done to this person to make them dislike me.  Am I the problem or am I the solution. I try so hard to figure it out that I think I am going crazy.  I reach out and get no response.  I call and no response.  What if these people are my family - aren't they supposed to like me?

I try to act like it does not bother me, however it bothers me a lot.  Quick example - birthdays come and go.  For theirs I FB message, text and CALLED on the phone.  I actually spoke to them for a bit.  Mostly about work or the kids - not what I would have considered personal at all. My birthday comes along and I get FB messages.  No one bothered to call.  It really makes me sad as this was exactly what my mom predicted would happen.  We gathered there in March and reassured her we would all be fine and  together.  After mom died and we spent a week together doing things, I was thinking well maybe her thinking was just that thinking about what would happened when she left this world.  I think I have spoken to 1 once in 3 years - because I called on the birthday.  2 of them just a handful of times - again because I call.  I was determined at Christmas not to call.  I did not and neither did they. One I speak with all the time as we are in the same boat.  No one includes her calls her, nothing.  It's really sad and I am glad I have her. What happened after mom died?  I think that they were all so busy and together and I was away that they no longer think I am part of their family or a sibling. Is that possible?  We have always been so close - at least I thought. Do they blame me because I was not there for the months they were all taking care of her?  Do they blame me for not allowing mom to come out the last 2 years?  I try not to make this about me, but since I talk to no one that is what I have come up with. I pray about this daily and wonder if they do too? Do I have the wrong attitude? What am I supposed to think?  What am I to do?  Keep doing the same - no one talking?

My hubby had a solution one night when I was crying, he suggested I call and ask them what is the matter?  Maybe they are just so busy with their own lives they don't think about me.  I guess that is a solution I will have to ponder.  Maybe they are waiting for me to ask, waiting for me to decide for them.  Oh, well, I will have to write more on this later.  We shall see.

Is Perfume a thing of the past.

Today I am wondering if wearing perfume is a thing of the past?  I used to wear it daily then comes along bath and body spray, body scrubs and other scented bath products.  I started asking for these and let the perfume go and now years later I am finally getting back into perfume.  I still use bath and body products and don't wear perfume with them because of the mixing of the scents does not seem like a great thing to do.

I'm just wondering how you feel about it?  Scented shampoos, scented soap, scented everything becomes scent over load.  My favorites in bath and body is the Sweet Pea, LOVE LOVE it.  Next would be the brown sugar, and a few others.  Mostly I asked for Sweet Pea and I have lots and lots of different products with the same scent.  

For Christmas 2015 my husband asked what I wanted and it took a while but said "you know what...I think I would like some perfume.  I really have not worn any in more that 15 years."  I through out all my bottles when we moved from Lake Placid, NY to Saranac Lake.  Most had dried up or lost their scent so I didn't see the point in taking with along with us.  My husband told my step son that I wanted perfume and he started on a mission of finding one... He lives in NYC so research is easy.  

My box arrives from NYC and I don't know really what Tommy got for me and I was so excited to see """ PERFUME""" I could not wait to get the package opened.  Such a cute box and elegant bottle.  The perfume came highly recommended he said.  I sprayed a little on my wrists and immediately fell in love with it.  What did he get you ask?

Chloe - See how cute the bottle is.

Chloe - Love Story is the expression of a free woman

Clare Waight Keller as creative director. Clémence Poésy as the actress. Mélanie Laurent plays film maker. Inez van Lamsweerde is the photographer and Anne Flipo created the scent. Each Chloé girl brought her vision to this new story. A declaration of femininity. A proclamation of freedom.

Essence of seduction

The freshness of Neroli illuminates her. The sensuality of orange blossom attracts him. The stirring femininity of jasmine stephanotis – the flower of happiness – makes her more irresistible than ever. On her skin, cedar vibrates with flair. A floral love story, fresh and sensual.  An unforgettable essence of seduction.

Unlock the secret

As a symbol of their affection there is a padlock, her fragrance. A precious jewel magnified by pleated glass. The delicate touch of a ribbon knotted nonchalantly at its side represents the modern and refined Chloé attitude.

First light of day

A boat moored under the Pont des Arts. As he opens the door, she disappears. Because above all she is free! Will she be back? Her fragrance floats in the air. The scent of a #chloeLOVE STORY.

I love this story at the end - she is free - does she return or is he left with just the  fragrance... Only time will tell.  Did I mention that I LOVE this perfume. Now I want to wear this every day.  When I am in my store people ask be what are you wearing.  I proudly tell them it's Chloe.

So to get back to where I started - Do you wear perfume?  Many of the younger generation I feel don't but the celebrity's make their own perfume and around the Holidays the commercials start.  I can tell you I have never seen the commercial for Chloe.  But then again, Lake Placid only has 2500 year round residents and no place near us sells it and that makes perfect sense.